Life’s been keeping me very busy and I’ve been pushing and stretching myself in several areas. Each hurdle makes me nervous but I’m learning it’s much better to push forward. Most of the time the risks are more than worth it and I’m getting much better at being ok with my mistakes when they happen. I have such an excitement about my life now that wasn’t there before – mistakes and all!
If there is one main lesson I learned through my deconversion that I carry with me every day, it’s that I absolutely refuse to live my life in fear anymore! I realize looking back how much of my life was based on fear. Fear of making mistakes. Fear of letting people down. Fear of letting God down. Fear of sinning. Fear of not having things turn out. Fear of the unknown. Fear of hell. Fear of not measuring up. Fear of not being holy enough. Fear! Fear! Fear! Fear! Fear!
If it’s the last night in these streets
You’d be a fool to take a seat
You got one life, one life
Don’t stop; live it up