One thing that was a surprise to me when I became an atheist was the urgency I started to feel to live life NOW and suck everything I could out of every moment. I was always told as a Christian that people without god in their life lived hopeless lives with no purpose. I’ve found the opposite. Because I’m not counting on some afterlife – this is all I have – I’m damn well going to make the most of it. My desire to enjoy the good, survive the bad, push my limits, experience pleasure, love others and be loved … it’s all become much more intense.